It has been two weeks.
Two weeks and three days to be exact.
On the 30th June I said goodbye to the only life I have known since I graduated from uni and found myself a ‘real’ job. Good bye to full-time employment.
I was brought up to find a good job. Throughout my entire schooling life I was primed to find a good job. A secure, safe, full time, regular, secure pay, 4 week off, sick pay, public holiday job.
Running my own business a pipe dream – not for us, definitely not for me.
I have pursued business aspirations in the past. There was the online party and event directory, Party Pages, the home based hamper business, Basket Treats, and who can forget handmade Christmas bon bons, Completely Crackers. I was 22 when I registered my first company. All of them on the side. Leaving my day job to pursue my little businesses off the table.
Too risky.
I never really appreciated at the time of starting at Global Ballooning just how much this business and I were perfectly suited to create some magic together. The business is owned by Kiff Saunders. Now that the chapter is closed I can look back and understand wholeheartedly that as much as I admire Kiff and the team at Global my real love was for this business. The brand Global Ballooning and everything that encapsulated the experience we created from behind the scenes to that first sight of seeing a majestic fully inflated hot air balloon before embarking on your magic carpet ride.
Tonight I had a surreal experience. I went to my first business networking event. Me, myself and I. No balloon back up. I don’t have business cards yet. I don’t have a product. I don’t have a magnetic sixty second elevator pitch. As I settled into my awkward ‘what do you do?’ conversations and really not enjoying being there I realised this is exactly where I need to be. I am now representing brand me, myself and I, encapsulating brand Despina Karatzias brand Excellence, brand Variety, brand Adventure, brand Compassion, brand Inspiration, brand Education. Some people might label these things as values I label them my DNA.
Fear of the unknown is paralysing. Pushing through the nausea of doing new things and entering new territory can be considered either ‘brave’ or ‘how can you be bothered?’.
I’m bothered, nauseous and paralysed with fleeting moments of internal drama of nonsense that I’m not good enough, prepared enough or tall enough for this journey and then I find the song that nails exactly where it’s at!
Tell me when was the last time you did something out of the box, felt the fear and did it anyway?
The fear butt kicking song I’m talking about goes a little something like this….let’s dance!!
The lyrics:
“Am I Wrong”
Am I wrong for thinking out the box from where I stay?
Am I wrong for saying that I choose another way?
I ain’t tryna do what everybody else doing
Just cause everybody doing what they all do
If one thing I know, I’ll fall but I’ll grow
I’m walking down this road of mine, this road that I call home
So am I wrong
For thinking that we could be something for real?
Now am I wrong
For trying to reach the things that I can’t see?
But that’s just how I feel,
That’s just how I feel
That’s just how I feel
Trying to reach the things that I can’t see
Am I tripping for having a vision?
My prediction: I’mma be on the top of the world
Walk your walk and don’t look back, always do what you decide
Don’t let them control your life, that’s just how I feel
Fight for yours and don’t let go, don’t let them compare you, no
Don’t worry, you’re not alone, that’s just how we feel
Am I wrong (am I wrong)
For thinking that we could be something for real?
(oh yeah yeah yeah oh)
Now am I wrong (am I wrong)
For trying to reach the things that I can’t see?
(oh yeah yeah yeah yeah)
But that’s just how I feel,
That’s just how I feel
That’s just how I feel
Trying to reach the things that I can’t see
If you tell me I’m wrong, wrong
I don’t wanna be right, right
If you tell me I’m wrong, wrong
I don’t wanna be right
[2x]
Am I wrong
For thinking that we could be something for real?
Now am I wrong
For trying to reach the things that I can’t see?
But that’s just how I feel,
That’s just how I feel
That’s just how I feel
Trying to reach the things that I can’t see
So am I wrong (am I wrong)
For thinking that we could be something for real?
(oh yeah yeah yeah oh)
Now am I wrong (am I wrong)
For trying to reach the things that I can’t see?
(oh yeah yeah yeah yeah)
But that’s just how I feel,
That’s just how I feel
That’s just how I feel
Trying to reach the things that I can’t see
Source:http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/nicovinz/amiwrong.html
